4:20 p.m. - 2005-04-28
get away
I just called Tom's mom. She says she has no idea what's going on, he won't talk to her. She asked me how I was and I told her I was fine for now. I guess everyone is pissed with him. She said he might be moving in with her and leaving his brother's soon. We both think anyplace is better than his brother's. I guess his brother is actually waiting for a bed in rehab. I had no idea it was that bad. I told her I don't think he can handle being a father. He can't handle my parents right now or the pressure. She said she would try to get something out of him and then she'll call me. I told her (and his sister this morning) that I would never drag him to court or say he couldn't see his child. I'm not that kind of person. I just need to know what's going on.
I emailed my cousin. I'm going to see if I can go stay with her at Geneseo this weekend. I wrote a totally desperate email so hopefully she's not too busy. I have to get away. I've got nowhere else to go. I'm also hoping she can help me deal with my head and help clarify some things. She's always been my favorite cousin. She's throwing my baby shower.
I just have this feeling that my left hand will be naked soon.
